Reflections from the verge

Yes, perhaps a bit like Anderson Cooper's book "Dispatches from the Edge"... Anyway, I'm leaving this afternoon. In a way, this week has gone by very slowly, and I'm happy for that, because it feels as though I've had more time than just a week here. God, I'll tell you one thing - I will always love this place. I'm sad to leave, yet looking around and thinking what it would be like if I was still here, I can still see the reasons why I left. I guess I just want to have it all, which is never how it works. You have to take the good with the bad most of the time. I want to be able to live my dreams of doing astronomy, yet I also want this connectedness to something bigger. And they are not mutually exclusive, but when you are away from this place, it's very, very easy to lose sight of just what the "bigger" thing is.

I'll tell you one thing though, you start to understand so many of the things we hear about from the pulpit but can never really grasp. Sometimes I have to make myself sit down and reflect on life and important things, because I hate that I can spend so much of my time just thinking about what time I have to leave to get to work and how can I sell more stuff and blah blah blah so mundane and unimportant in the grand scheme of things. I miss having the time and energy to focus on something more than that stuff. Reflection is a luxury I used to take for granted. Now it is often one that I can't afford. But then, there's a lot I can't afford right now, namely groceries :)

Anyway, I've had a great time and I hope it isn't too long before I can come back. I mean, I don't know what would next pull me up here, but there's got to be something. If not, I'll just come to visit sometime, and hopefully for longer. But for now, it's back to the grindstone...

An update, since I have a moment

Well, I'm still in Alaska for another, oh let's see... four days approximately. I'm having a really nice time, although it's difficult to wrap my mind around being here and thinking about going back to work after having been here. In many ways I don't to even think about leaving on Sunday, yet I'm also looking forward to seeing my fam and the kitties and such like. I'm most looking to pass the next couple of months so that I can really get back to what I want to be doing, which is not "biding my time," but actually accomplishing something. If nothing else, this is being a great recharge for me.

Last night I hung out with Nathan and that was a lot of fun, just kind of reminiscing and such, and talking about life.

You know, most people hear that I'm majoring in astronomy, and they're just a little puzzled - you can see it in their eyes. I can't wait to prove that I can actually do it and make it in "the real world" whatever that is.

That's it, I guess, for now

Here I am again...

...and boy is it ever hard to believe. I'm so excited to be here again! In a way nothing has changed, yet it seems as though everything has. I know I'm going to hate to go come next Sunday, but life goes on and there are bills to pay :) Bo, I'm sure you got my message, but just so you know, the phones are out here and I mayn't be able to call you again for a while, but I'm here and everything is fine. It's exciting to be a part of the whole wedding thing and be with Janelle for this last week. I guess I don't really have anything else to say, but that's the status report for now.

Weeeell

Today I'm not working at all so I'm enjoying the day off. It's my last day before I leave for my trip next Friday that I'm not working at all. So, I'm at my sister's house doing laundry and watching TV. Um, for those of you who read my last blog post, I did fine on the Spanish test. It was more difficult than I thought it would be but I also did better than I thought I would having finished it. I'm registered now for a Spanish 103 class. Hopefully it will be another way to meet some more people and such. People are starting to show up for school, as I guess it gets under way here in a couple of weeks. Lots of moving trucks around and such. Yeah, so... I'm really broke - no surprise there. I'm having to be really careful this month because I'm not working at all for 10 days, and while my expenses are lessened (no gas, food, etc.) I have to make sure I can pay my bills come the end of the month. It's going to be close, but oh well, what can I do? Anyway, that's it for now, I guess.

Hello, homies!

How is everyone out there? I hope everyone is well and all that stuff. I'm getting uber excited about going up to Alaska for 10 days, and I'm going to try not to worry about making my bills when I come home. Speaking of bills, rent it coming up, that will be fun...

I went running this morning with Bo, something we are making a bit of a habit of, and we got so rained on. Thunderstorms are expected throughout the day... I sound like a meteorologist. Anyway, I like thunderstorms and they will bring a little relief from the heat wave. It's been so incredibly hot. In a couple of hours I have to take my Spanish assessment test, and it's nerve wracking because I have to, have to, have to get into at least a 102 class so that I can transfer to the U of I in the spring. My transferring is contingent on two things - this test, and having 60 transferable credits. I mean, I'll still be going to school full time come this spring, I'd just like to be able to go straight into U of I as opposed to starting out at Parkland and then transferring yet again. Espero que hago bien en eso examen. I think that's right. Oh well if it isn't. Anyway, gotta run, wish me luck, etc.